"We are all divorced from life, we are all cripples, every one of us, more or less. We are so divorced from it that we feel at once a sort of loathing for real life, and so cannot bear to be reminded of it. Why, we have come almost to looking upon real life as an effort, almost as hard work, and we are all privately agreed that it is better in books." - The Underground Man
Given that I have never before blogged with the sole exception of my brief time on Wattpad writing short stories which have long since been deleted, I don't quite know how to start a post. Let's go with the typical AA starter:
Hi, my name is Tahsen and I'm a student.
My favourite quote at the moment is from the Underground Man (above). I'm not really sure why to be entirely honest. It is a genuinely hopeless statement but it's sincere and I can appreciate that. It also rather accurately describes what "geeks" me out and why.
What geeks me out is to escape. To walk past space and time with passing glance and exit from the confines of reality into the endless hallways outside and slide into another room.
Or at least I do that in my head. Really, I just draw, watch movies, play videogames and play soccer.
I love getting lost in stories. I used to love reading books because they were the best way to describe and imagine a world but now I tend to lean in favour of animated films and/or tv series because they can create dynamic images that words can't express and overcome the limitations of live-action media without losing overall quality. The best stories, I think, are those that aren't born into a vacuum of nothingness but are rather created as a part of a tightly closed system where everything inside the system has significance and can affect the rest of the system. One where every single detail is a part of a greater world. Tolkien's tales of Middle Earth, Breaking Bad, Castlevania (the Netflix series), and Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood are all excellent examples of such airtight storytelling.
I dabble in writing and painting on my own but am nowhere close to being capable of creating something of a comparable calibre. My best painting thus far is the cherry blossom growing from a rotting heart (as seen below the left). My logo is a torch (as seen below on the right).
My favourite website is MuseScore (https://musescore.org/en) it lets me listen to music composed by amateur composers and compose music myself. Some of it is really impressive.
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